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[03 Oct 2008|12:52am]
 so was ok. work is work i guess. whatever. i kinda really like it acctually. but anyways....

  so dakota fanning... the next big thing... why doesnt anyone make more of a big deal about her? i absolutely adore her. who doesnt though.

 so this all is just a distraction to take me away frm my own depressing yet fascinating life.  ya know i ahve a really great guy im dating right now, and im trying to be happy...but with my record, i cant. i kinda hate men. but love them kinda thing. i love love them but hate hate them. he seems like a great guy but dont they all. ya know im so interested in guys, but i cant help it. im all about the falling in love, but i always find a reason to not be. i always find a fault...and make it way worse, if i dont choose the crack head over the good guy. my theory is if i already know they're flaws, when i find out one, or all of them...then im not surprised or hurt in the end... is that fucked up?
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[29 Sep 2008|02:53pm]

   so im back in harrison twp. this shits crazy. everythings crazy.  i dont even know what im doing right now. im happy. though. im really happy. 


       ya know 2 weeks ago. i was a fucking mess.  ya know with my aunt screwing me over, and my moms boyfriend screwing us all over.  i was just so unhappy. and then someone wonderful comes into my life...and im just so happy about it. and im not happy about him, even though i am. im happy about the fact  that he made me realize that i need to just keep going. ya know. im the type that just needs a little kick. chantals done it, nikis done it, samanthas done it, todd and jeremy. i just need that kick when things are down...so that i come around.

      so it was a big blow to my ego going frm paying my own bills, doing it all right, to having to come back to my moms house, and it wasnt even my fault. the fact that my aunt screwed me over and was taking my money totally fucked with my head....big time. also this last year...ive taken steps back. ive totally taken a look at who my real friends are.... and i cut out alot of people of my life....or let them grow out. i have alotta great memories with alotta people but i couldnt be the only one holding us together, or strung along by promises that friends have made. it just to me seems very stupid.


    ive  also gotten close with alotta people that i wouldnt normally get close with. my cousin on my dads side. both my sisters.  i dont know.  i dont even know over all how im acctually doing.

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[29 Sep 2008|02:42pm]
                  hey its been awhile eh? hows it going? i think i should start this livejournal thing again. whos still out there?
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[19 Apr 2005|02:21am]
it saddens me.......

all i can do is cry tears!
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Terri Shiavo [01 Apr 2005|01:40pm]
ok ive been following the story on CNN for like 3 weeks during the debate of the feeding tube, after they took it out and up to her death, and her husband has never mad his self look like a good guy or even love her.
did you know that hes had another girlfriend for 10 years, and 2 kids. and did you know that micheal shiavo let her family in the room with him 15 minutes before she died but right before she passed he made them get out...wtf!
Now come on people this is a womans family she needs them and they need to be with her in that time. i dont know what his grudge was against they but thats inhuman. and he said that he would have let them in if they said sorry. well im sorry prick face this isnt about you your wifes dying in a bed, right next to you...and your worried about some grudge. he should've just signed over rights and went to be with his girlfriend and kids. because like dave said whoever can stay without food for 13 days or so is obviously fighting for something, let the girl fight...he wasnt paying for anything!
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lj cut? [13 Mar 2005|05:24pm]

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[08 Mar 2005|08:30pm]
so im at alexas again, i got fuckin kicked outta class today. yea that fucking sucked. anyways i miss chantal, i read the whole letter today woman, and i started writing back, but some things i would rather not write. ok but i dont know. i stayed two nites at my mothers house and that was alright i guess...me and will went thrift store shopping and to somerset today. and i fell asleep. wow right. i dont know...last week things got outta control. and im just trying to grab onto my sanity once again.
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[01 Mar 2005|03:02pm]
yea well im sitting ehre at alexas house waiting for her to get ready. i have no internet at my house and its straight up killin me. ahh ah ahh im dying. anyways yea been trying to get ahold of chantal stupid bitch aint answering her fone (girl you know i have love for you)! i might hopefully see shannon alot. we really opened up to each other the other day and now wwere tighter than we are, and im grateful because i love her, yea thats right i love her. umm what else. yea im dying.
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[26 Feb 2005|03:28pm]
hey hey, yea lookin for some money real bad, really really really really really really, alot reallys bad. like im not even fucking kidding. im talking to shannon, and im gonna see her tonite, because shes the shit. and Jay to, he was fucking awesome when i met him, one of the kewlest straight peoples i met. and Lisas coming thats a given. and i wish Vanessa was still coming but sorry folks im more excited to meet shannons friend than anything...i fell lik the weirdest person ever!
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[21 Feb 2005|08:55pm]
i went and stayed the nite with a couple friends of mine, they are a couple, and im really comfortable with them. well it was really niice i had a really rough, eye opening weekend, as you all know, i did shit i do regret, i said shit i regret, and i do not regret anything. it made me realize alot of things about myself i need to change. D and A, talked to me, and knocked alotta sense into me. i needed to get away thats why i was away for 4 days,a nd then when i got home last nite nobody was here, so i needed to go out for another nite. and thanks to them, they made me not so depressed anymore. i really need to snap outta this shit, this depression shit. im a good guy and i can say that. ive got a good heart, and i know that. alot of people make mistakes and they learn from them, and im one of those people, thats why i dont get down on myself </i>usually when i make mistakes because i learn from them. and i know right from wrong. i really do believe it or not! im really proud of myself.

yea so i just got in trouble i totally forgot about monday dinners and grammys. i feel really horrible. my mother just called and yelled at me!!

Chantal nobody could ever ever ever ever in a bigillion years!
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[20 Feb 2005|06:19pm]
this weekend, ahh this weekend. rough, long and exhausting, but very eye opening. i talked alot with alexa and will, and then when i got home i went over the couple days with chantal, and frankly, to be honest i was too honest. i wore my heart on my shoulder. i think i was too honest, if im too honest, im smothering, i told everyone that if i smother them, to tell me, but what if they dont want to tell me? afraid of hurting my feelings. i dont know. i dont get it. i dont know what i did. i dont understand. and i wish i knew all of it. im annoying myself, so i had to be annoying everyone else this weekend. yea whatever. i know people get sick of me. nobody has to say it. im what they say, one of those people you can take in small dozes...!
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[19 Feb 2005|12:04pm]
You can decipher the truth with only the greatest perception.
The drama takes over every thought,
It seems that these days truth needs to be bought.

Every waking moment I curse,
For my frustration with “them” only gets worse.
Stupid bitches, wasting time in their youth,
Is it really that hard for them to just tell the truth?

Lives are wasted; friends are lost,
Do you see how much these “simple” lies cost?
People don’t see the hurt caused by just one lie,
But one lie may make someone go home and cry.

Nobody with a heart could ever do this to a friend,
But someone I know did, and our friendship came to an end.
Don’t do this to someone you love or care about,
Keep your life on track; pick the honest route.

Everyday I put up with liars and their crap,
Its people like them who give teens a bad rap.
If only there were some way they could see,
The horrible people they look like to me.
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stories [19 Feb 2005|10:51am]
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[11 Feb 2005|06:10pm]
school, well what can i say besides it was school. im gettin closer with "the crush". im not as shy about my feelings but i sorta joke around about them so he doesnt exactly know...ya know. i also got a pedicure and facial at the same time...because why...why you say...im a fuckin P-I-M-P!

this fucking school shit wore me out. im so worn out.
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pics of me [11 Feb 2005|05:59pm]

me and Shannon, dude i fuckin love that girl, what a lil cutie...!

this is me and chantal, and we all know how i feel about her...fuckin love of my life.

me at the male boxx...yea i the boy that looks like hes twelve got in...

bad bad boy...i know i know!

dude i dont know what id do without the fone
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[11 Feb 2005|12:25am]
ok just got off the fone with chantal, fucking best woman in the world, you see us in the icon, we're fucking hott. thats right girl we're a couple of hotties. i miss her so much and i love talking to her, everytime i get off the fone with her a smiled is stained on my face for like 3 days. its marvelous. whatever though she loves me too, and thats the best part is i know it...!

oh so me and Joe we're gonna get a place together, like mandatory. i want one with him so bad and i know it'll work out for sure. hes like one of the best as well. him and chantal are like my matches. i dont fight with them (couldnt even imagine)....and the weird part is im like a couple with both of them, but at the same time im not, i could never be that way with joe (no offense), but chantal on the other hand, marry that bitch, ill be waiting at the end of the isle. oh i got Joe hooked on Paris and Nicole as well, hes realized how great they are. he knows good and bad.

so today in school was pedicure day. it took me til the last hour to be able to get one. i ahte my feet. i still have to get up enough penis to get one though, i need to do atleast one to get on the floor. i love school. i really like it. and ive grown on these girls Andrea and Kady, and all the bitches in there love me. ive been flirting with this guy Jason hes kewl. and ive been crushin on some other blonde hottie. Alexa, Will and this girl Katie we met have also made it way quite exciting. its fabulous. i dont go to break on my breaks i go on John, Alexa and Katies breaks thats whats funnie. its great. Love it.

X_zero_reality whats your name so i can mention you in here to? i had some things to say about you earlier, of course i forgot, but hey shoot me.

Chatal love ya biotch!
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[10 Feb 2005|07:53pm]
dude look at my fucking icon, fucking hott right, give it up chantal we're a bunch of fuckin hotties. anyways yea beauty school is cool, im getting real tired at the end of those 8 hours though, and im having a hard time concentrating on the book work but i can do it...i can do it. im gonna make it after all as lavern and shirley would say. anyways yea yea same ole same ole shit going on just a different day. im livin like a rockstar.

hey chantal post the more pics of me atleast id like to see them all but i know how long that would take!
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[08 Feb 2005|07:08am]
i start school in about ad hour and a half and johns gonna be here in an hour. so im kinda excited, wish me luck!
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[07 Feb 2005|11:30pm]
tomorrows my first day of school and im so nerveous and scared, and excited all at the same time. its so awesome....i love it.! anyways yea whatever!
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[07 Feb 2005|10:52am]
What do people really think about you?
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Parents thinkYou're sleeping around
Strangers thinkYou're hot
Friends thinkYou need a fuck buddy
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